Week 1

Three is my favorite number so I might as well update on day 3.  I joined a weight loss group, weigh in was Sunday, so I started weight loss Monday.  I am super excited because I have not mentally had to fight food urges, I haven't felt like this is an impossible journey.  The group goes until April 25th, however I am going to continue through May, and then try and maintain my loss. I have been walking at least 20 mins a day, and I hope to do that at least 5-6 days a week, I will increase the time, and then increase the speed. At some point right before kids, I was running 3 miles, I would love to get back to that.

Another goal is to listen to three podcasts in a week, I really do better with visual learning, so I compromised today and listened to  sermon on you tube. Except it wasnt' a live stream, it was still Audio. The content was fantastic though.  It was on listening to the Holy Spirit.  Lots of people say they can't hear God speak to them.  Bill Johnson laid it all out quite simply for me.  I am going to sum it up.  When you are born again, you have a natural ability to hear God. You don't hear God when you are striving, like putting on worship or reading scripture, you hear God when you are at a place of rest. God will speak to you when driving a car, shopping etc...He is not some alarming voice that comes from the outside, He is a familiar voice that comes internally. The holy spirit is designed to talk to our spirit. Our fleshly side cannot hear Him, only our spiritual side can.  He will speak things that are way better than we could ever come up with.  His voice pierces your heart. You will feel His presence, His peace. The Holy Spirit has come to comfort, guide, teach, empower, and intercede for us. He also has come to reveal things given to us from the Father, He is there to help us find them. When you get into  the word, worship and prayer, your ability to hear the Spirit is awakened.  So if you long to talk to the Father, read His word, sing His praises, get on your knees. He hears you!  He will speak to you, just stop striving as if you can make Him speak to you, it is when we are in His rest and our minds are at peace when we will hear Him.

IT"S 2020!!

I am excited for this new year.  I have never been one for resolutions, but last year I started with a word for the year, "reflections", this year God has given me the word restoration. I am super excited because we are coming out of almost a decade of a season in our lives where we poured all we had into those God placed in our path.  I wouldn't trade that journey for anything. It was a time of growth, healing, loving, crying, and pure exhaustion. The relationships we made and the kids we watched bloom were so rewarding, and I am humbled to have been given the opportunity to get to know and guide such sweet beautiful souls. BUT OH THE EXCITEMENT OF RESTORATION!!!!

I have for many years felt like I have forgotten who I am, and I mean who I am from the bottom of my being. What do I love? What are my passions? What do I hate? What exhausts me? What energizes me?  What do I long for? Dream about?  If I had to describe me, who is that?  Does anyone actually see ME?  When I am sad, what helps?  If I am feeling giddy, how do I express that?  What is my "style"? LOL my kids would tell you I have no style, I have turned into a frumpy 40 yo who takes no time for herself.  I can tell you that is going to change!!!  I am coming out of a season of sacrificial serving and I am finding ME again.  God has promised to restore us and I am standing on His promises and declaring that this is a year where I AM RESTORED. I am taking my health back, both physical and mentally. My relationships with my husband, kids, friends, are going to be so much more. Our office is going to be restored to what HE has designed it. He is going to show up in BIG ways and His goodness will shine!  If you've taken the time to read this, I pray God's blessings and favor over your life and that you will be restored in the areas where you are crying out to Him. Love to you all!